Do I have to believe in IT ???!!!

well,,I keep asking my self why is it so hard for me to believe in love ???!!!
I do believe in IT ...uhh now I messed it up right ?? ok here is the story ,,,I guess I believe in it but my fear is more bigger ,,,I am afraid that one day I suffer and brake my heart ,,mmm I know fear of suffering is way more worse than suffering it self ,,,,but it's kinda complicated hehe
we live in a closed world and KARMA plays the main role ,,,people keep acting on impulse when they get hurt and this is reflected on other people around them ,,,this is very natural and no one can tell why this happens
but,,,a little control and awareness would solve the problem .
I thank Allah very much that I 've been surrounded by very loving and caring family and friends..but to be honest sometimes I become more afraid of how they act.
my girlfriends keep telling me their stories and ask me to help them when they are troubled,,and to be honest I do that in a very GOOD way ;-) aaaaaa this is not very good as it appears because this is the main source of my fear ,,,
what if, I got troubled ??? am I gonna solve my case as I do now ????
what if I couldn't find someone to ask for help ???
what if ,, what if,, what if ,,, aaaaaa this is so FUNNY ,,If I continue this way I may go nuts
but here is my word,,,I will think about it seriously this time :-)

Comments

  1. AliaaNovember 30, 2010 at 11:09 PM

    i think to know what to do is the very major step, u know now u have and need to think so this the deal..

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