Smart Magnificent Realistic Project

yes I am on it ...the break down a real break ...and I think it's time for me to admit it ,,I can't stand this any more this is too more than much for me to handle . I am in the middle of nowhere no friends no  ,,,they are all busy, away, have their own burdens or ... they don't care. this is the life ,,,a long journey to our destiny full of : illness, sadness, bitter ,,,HAPPINESS , JOY,and much more. ,,,I won't lose faith and I know sometimes it's good to fall into pieces and pass through hard times ,,and I guess this happens to remind us of all we got  ,,,so we have to thank god for everything even those moments of weakness. I think it's going good for me al7mdolilah oooh Allah pleas help me :'(

..I might as well have done this very long time ago ....but there is no time to regret I believe that every thing happens for a reason even if I don't know this reason but sure there is a one and a strong one. I know it's hard to do it but I have to start it today to prove at least to my self I am strong enough to stand on my own. ...I know till this third paragraph I didn't write a significant sentence and out of that feeling of (aauuhhh what the hell are you talking about ???!!!) I know am confused but I got to get my self back to what it used to be ...strong ,,confident ,,smart realistic and magnificent . yaeh I am all that it may take a while ,,,to rebuild and reshape it and this may cause damages but sure it will be for the best I need a space I need a zone I have to handle things ALOONE

,,,exactly this is the point where I am standing right now ..frozen full of doubts and questions ,,,thinking consciously to avoid any irrational action holding on faith believing that one of two things will happen : 1. there will always be something to stand upon. or 2. I will learn how to fly :-) meanwhile I decided not to do anything but sleeping,eating,drinking,and all other things that keep me alive heheh. ,,,,every line has two ends even the infinite line ...and here I come to the end of one of those lines. I am going to decide what I should do and I know I can do it on my own quz I have a GOD who protects me and guides me.. I will do it yes I can I will be that SMR whom I've ever dreamed to be :-)