mesSed Up

..I might as well have done this very long time ago ....but there is no time to regret
I believe that every thing happens for a reason even if I don't know this reason but sure there is a one and a strong one.
I know it's hard to do it but I have to start it today to prove at least to my self I am strong enough to stand on my own.

...I know till this third paragraph I didn't write a significant sentence and out of that feeling of (aauuhhh what the hell are you talking about ???!!!)
I know am confused but I got to get my self back to what it used to be ...strong ,,confident ,,smart realistic and magnificent . yaeh I am all that
it may take a while ,,,to rebuild and reshape it and this may cause damages but sure it will be for the best
I need a space I need a zone I have to handle things ALOONE

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